Not Me Monday!!!

I did not take a pair of pants back to The Gap after they sat through an entire season in the bag with tags on them...and I did not treat myself to another pair instead of just returning them...
While in The Gap, I was not holding my precious son--I was not wearing a cute red top--and I did not realize--I emphasize I DID NOT REALIZE that I was leaking Mama Milk through my padded bra and shirt while up at the register.
I did not become totally embarrassed and blame it on my drooling child--because the perfect ring in the center of my breast was SO NOT TOTALLY OBVIOUS!!!!!!!
Nope, not me...that sort of thing never happens...
For more things that never happen...head over to MckMama's blog--our Not Me Monday queen!!!!!!

Remember me?

Where have I been?...well...check out my post at FoR for my excuse...sorry...

There are times--even after over 11 months of breastfeeding--that I still feel like I am a novice. I feel strangely overwhelmed by my "lack of experience"--I am not aware of what "this" means and how it will balance with "that"--and with God's unique design of little Par's insides--it can be frustrating. Yet, as I have seen the other side of the "BF mountain" since my frustration began last week--I can tell you---DON'T WORRY! Your body just knows how to respond to your baby(although I have read this works best with exclusive/demand BF). Yes...after Par kicked his appetite up a bit with regards to solid food--our BF sessions plummeted. I realize that this will happen at some point--but with Par's medical issues, the best thing for him is breastmilk (it has the highest calorie/fat content)--so it is frustrating seeing him blossom with eating but the best thing for him is breastmilk and he just wasn't BF as much...
So thankfully--it leveled out--his body realized that it still needed the breastmilk--and he's drinking a little more than even before--just different timing. Long mornings and long evenings--only a few times during the day (it was every 2-3 hours).

So...I've almost made it a year. I'll admit, it hasn't been difficult. I know a lot of people find BF this long hard--and I don't minimize your feelings one bit--but after pumping for 2 months--this is a breeze (and I am blown away by anyone who pumped for a year)--plus, my lifestyle has really be catered to my son and his health issues, so thankfully I didn't see it as difficult or I may have been resentful...I pray that I can say this with as much enthusiasm with my next child.

Which reminds me...I totally have baby fever...as Par nears one year old...I want a little baby to cuddle--so when did your cycle return? Were you exclusively BF? Were you still BF?